Identity has been defined as the distinguishing characteristics or personality of an individual: the qualities or beliefs that distinguish or identify a thing. Is it really our identity we often share? As we grow from teens to adulthood I find people often share aspects of their identity that they think will be acceptable, respected, admired. We don a mask that hides our true self and climb the ladder of success that is placed against a wall we may not be passionate about. We focus on what needs to be done, on goals and outcomes.
Yet, as we mature we start to question this identity. We begin to ask ourselves bigger questions such as Who Am I? What is my purpose in the world? Do I exist beyond this lifetime? Is my soul part of my identity? This is when people become interested in their divinity and want to live an authentic higher conscious life.
Does identity evolve in other ways eventually revealing our true authentic self?
Recently I dreamed that I was in a spiritual group where some of us knew each other from other experiences, so we were asked to share something no one would know about you. Here is what I shared:
" I would say I presently have no identity. I flow with whatever the energy leads me to be in most joy and maybe even fun in every moment."
People nodded and we continued on to the next person. No one spoke to me about my revelation. It was as if it did not register.
Of course in dreams, scenes change and things do not occur logically. However, I reflected that if I had said the same thing in most groups, even spiritual ones today, many people would have only heard BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH, like the adults speaking in Charlie Brown specials. I think you have to be at a certain frequency to dare to play with the idea of yourself without an identity.
Or perhaps identity is an overlay we assume to be safe and acceptable. Underneath it we each have a divine core essence, a pure form that is not determined by other peoples teachings, expectations of you or cultural whispers. When you live consciously you live from that essence. Its what I call the deep wild core, the place where your truest divine self lives - fully expressing itself.
So is that what having no identity in my dream meant? Am I living from my core essence? Or am I living as the Oneness.... no separation. Or perhaps I have no identity when I expand to become the part of the All That Is. At any moment I can shape shift and become whatever I desire. I can put however much of Gina-Dianne I want to into that experience.
With these questions and refelections in mind, I called a good friend Dorothy West. You may know her from the Happiness Company, or her new venture Ready Set Go with West . Its so exciting to have someone who is enthusiastic play with ideas.
She said she depended on me to to show up defined in a way she could identify. Not on that was unchanging or stagnant though. To her its not so much that we don't need an identity - it's more that we are no longer focused on finding who we are. Those of us who have been on a spiritual path know who we are. We have eliminated who we're not. Our identity is no longer interesting to focus on. Because we don't have to shape our identity, that gives us freedom to experience ourselves as the real energy we are. We can create any experience we desire with no limitations.
I no longer compare myself to those around me. When I accept who I am and who I am not, my experience changes. I am not defined by an identity. No one outside me defines me. The sense of not needing to accomplish anything and thinking it's emptiness of purpose is really total liberation. I can decide what and how I like to experience something.
When you come from this place you can choose to do something for no other purpose than your own enjoyment, your own experience. What you do doesn't define you. You don't worry it's saying anything about you. Its just you experiencing your own enjoyment in doing it.
Dorothy and I played with the definition of identity vs core essence or a persons energetic blueprint. We can change our identity, but our essence doesn't change. When we stop focusing on "Who I am now" as an identity, we don't have to work at it or define it. When we are no longer working on developing our self-identity it frees us up. We can ask "How do I want to entertain myself?" and not be attached to what we feel we need to accomplish. We are living as a Divine Being free to BE.
The nugget in the discussion with Dorothy seemed to be that we may have an identity that we infuse with whatever current experience we choose. People still like to recognize us and will do so by feeling our energy field. But our identity reveals our true essence and that field is so clear there are no boundaries to being seen as our authentic Divine Self. And the key is to enjoy life in each moment as the True Divine You.