Okay, I’ll say this right up front. This is going to push a few buttons for people. That’s okay, because unless those buttons get pushed, they get stuck in the ON position running on constant repeat. So here goes. If this pushes your button, you can either jump in there and stick it back on repeat with some duct tape, or you can simply allow it to play itself out with ease and grace.
This is something I’ve been experiencing most of my life, especially since I began my spiritual journey. We’ve been indoctrinated into thinking there’s something wrong with us. And then we create an abundance of stories to validate that. Once we spiritually awaken, we go deep diving into our psyches to excavate and heal all these perceived wounds.
I’ve worked as a physical therapist, alternative healer, and spiritual coach. What I’ve discovered is that those who truly choose to heal, do. And those who are still caught up with that button pushed flat out in the ON position, don’t. At some point I had to ask, is there no end to these stories? Do we ever reach a point in which we are “healed”? If so, how do we do that?
I ran across this passage from John O’Donahue this morning and it spoke volumes to me. Perhaps his words may touch a place in your soul that speaks to you as well:
“People in our hungry modern world are always scraping at the clay of their hearts. They have a new thought, a new plan, a new syndrome, that now explains why they are the way they are. They have found an old memory that opens a new wound. They keep on relentlessly, again and again, scraping the clay away from their own hearts. In nature we do not see trees, for instance, getting seriously involved in therapeutic analysis of their root systems or the whole stony world that they had to avoid on their way to the light. Each tree grows in two directions at once, into the darkness and out to the light with as many branches and roots as it needs to embody its wild desires.
Negative introspection damages the soul. It holds many people trapped for years and years, and ironically, it never allows them to change. It is wise to allow the soul to carry on its secret work in the night side of your life. You might not see anything stirring for a long time. You might have only the slightest intimations of the secret growth that is happening within you, but these intimations are sufficient.” ~ John O’Donohue: Excerpt from ANAM CARA~
I have no judgment here for anyone’s particular path, for every soul offers wisdom, and we’ve each chosen to experience things for our own soul’s growth. I’m simply sharing my own personal experience. And perhaps shining a light on a few stuck buttons.
At some point in my life, I got so fatigued with attempting to heal myself and others that I just walked away. I gave up my healing practice and stopped coaching others. I decided there must be an easier way. For the divine within me doesn’t know suffering. And that’s how I chose to live, free of suffering, with the natural ease and grace of life.
Over the years, I played a lot of spiritual shenanigans. Some of them worked to some degree but they were nothing more than games of the mind. Yes, I choose to focus on the good in life rather than the bad. You know, the law of attraction and such as that. There are those who think that’s putting your head in the sand and ignoring all the bad stuff. But, I’m not one who is constantly reaching for the artificially rose-colored glasses.
What I finally realized is that noticing the joy and beauty of life is my natural way of BEing. It’s how the Divine experiences life. It’s the truth of Who I Am, and I was simply getting caught up in the collective consciousness.
Thus, I walked away from all of it and simply called in the Divine. My buttons started popping like crazy. Once I became aware of them, I had to surrender a lot of my usual habits and patterns. It hasn’t always been comfortable, because it means I no longer fit into society’s idea of right and wrong. And stepping out of that requires immense courage because most of the people around us prefer that we remain as they’ve always known us to be.
But after awhile, I noticed a new hum in my life. It’s the hum of Well-being. It’s the hum of the Divine. It’s the hum of my natural way of being. All I need do is remain attuned to this hum, my hum, my authentic Self. I’m aware that the void, or the darkness, is the womb where all my potentials and desires are birthed. I don’t hesitate to spend time in my womb of potentials, I relish it. When I do, new dreams and desires flow into my life with ease and grace.
Yes, there are times when a formerly undisclosed button gets pushed. When it does, I say, Bravo! Because it means more of Who I Am is being revealed to me. But I don’t go deep diving beneath that button to see what pain initiated it, or what I need do to heal it or clear it. I simply allow the button to release itself of its own accord, unraveling all the circuitry that’s been connected to it over the years. All I need do is get out of the way and allow it to clear.
And that’s how life is meant to be lived!
More than that, life is meant to be FUN!
Some say I live in the magic of life. I say magic is natural, and it’s the way life is meant to be! For this is the way of the Divine. And this is the lifetime in which we have chosen to realize that we are Divinely Human.
~Sharon Lyn Shepard~
“message from my inner wisdom”
gratitude to the artist Susan Boulet
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